The second day of the year 2006. I was able to keep up the resolution of getting up early and doing some constructive work in the mornings that I earlier wasted(?).
Anshu called yesterday from Shimla and wanted to talk to me and it was all about her miseries. Her glasses fell down and were broken. There was nothing to fix it up. But could I help her, sitting so away from her? NO, but just talking to me gave her some moral boosting and today in the morning, she again called to tell me that the optician was not able to fix another glass and she had an appointment at 11AM and moreover it was at a faraway place. Could I help her? Of course, No.But she felt like talking to me although both of us understand that she alone is responsible for taking decisions and managing her life without me.
Does it give me a sense of remote controlling her life even from such physical distance? I would rather put it this way that somehow I seem to sense that something is bad whenever any of my kids is passing through a rough phase. The question again remains unanswered, even if I know something is missing and needs to be fixed, I am in no position to do so, then why they trust me and feel relieved unburdening their sorrows and worries?
Perhaps the same thing happens when I, too, look toward someone else to help me find a solution to all that makes me unhappy. I look towards GOD and pour all my laments in front of Him. I feel relieved as if someone more capable than me is now aware of my problems and would see to them. But ultimately, the fact is that I myself have to find a solution to all thattroubles me.
I just have so much to learn from you Anshu. But thanks anyway to have this unfalling trust in me.
