Next Tuesday i.e.7 February, 2006, Nidhi by this time would depart for her new home! This feeling overwhelmed me the moment I opened my eyes today in the morning.

I am greatly disturbed these days as a part of my being is being torn. I am reminded of the day she was born, a small bundle of joy that we all welcomed. It was 25th of July, 1980 and as I was with my mother at that time, I was able to analyze my feelings as a daughter and a a mother as well.

I must acknowledge honestly at this stage that I had always been very close to my father but not as close to my mother but Nidhi's birth changed it all. I just started having a revaluation of my feelings and felt the real warmth of the deep love that a mother has for her kids though outwardly she may appear to be a strict mother.

That was the day when I suddenly felt so close to her as I was myself a MOTHER now. That day I had two relationships, one the newbond with my child and the revival of the another one with my mother!

Now at this stage when anothr new relationship in the process of being made and an existing one on the verge of sapped(?), once again I am experiencing the pangs of pre-birth labour pains and am a bewildered person. Do we all go through the same process of uncertainty before such a "New Start" or I am being unduly anxious?

I look forward eagerly to the new beginning and am equally uncertain about the new beginning. I just hope that the way Nidhi's birth made me usher into a new relationship with my own mother, her marriage would also initiate me into a new bond of love with the new entrant to our family!